2,200 rea$ons it stays HERE!

Just to recap for those of you that are unaware of the BULLSHIT that has gone down in my life since Monday, my fiancé of 6 months (boyfriend of 2 years, best friend of 2 1/2 years) has recently decided that his multiple promises of "never leaving my side" and never hurting me "because it just isn't in him to cause me pain" and most importantly his proposal to stand by my side forever as my loving husband, have become too INCONVENIENT. Yes, I just said INCONVENIENT.

Now that he will be leaving the lonely life of the Marine Corps, and re-entering the exciting life of a California college student, he is not able to make enough time for me, and that he will be too busy to change his ways (of always talking to me like a Marine, or like I'm stupid) and since he will not change, then we will continue to argue constantly, and that is no way to live. He has decided that the most important thing in his life (which he used to say was me) now is full time school and to make sure HIS life is on the path to success. Then and only then, he says, will he have time for me to be in his life. PLEASE.
What the fuck do you think I'VE been doing for the last 2 years, asshole?!? Taking 17 credit hours, working 30 hours a week, and STILL making him first in my life. Using every spare amount of energy that I have to make this long distance thing seem as if we were together again. But HE's not strong enough. He just can't DO IT anymore. Is this making any sense to anyone? 'Cause it sure as hell doesn't add up for me. Here is what I see he is trying to say to me:

"I am a weak, selfish, bastard that doesn't know what a commitment, promise or standing by your word means, and I love being a self absorbed prick SO much that I refuse to change even if it means losing the best thing that will ever happen to me in my life."

So, he decided to tuck his tail between his legs, and walk out on me, leaving his honor and integrity at the door as he left.

OKAY.....There is the recap (kinda long for a recap...sorry). NOW.... let me tell you what he said to me as we were sitting in my truck at the airport parking lot.

"I'm gonna need to get the ring back."

EXCUSE ME ?!?!?!?!?

I was in such pain and taken back by what he said, that all I could do is beg him through my tears to not make me give it back. I said I couldn't bear it, not now. I needed more time. He said okay. Well, it is now 4 days later, and the first day I actually feel like I can breathe without bawling. It is at this point that I am now able to see past the gut wrentching pain and realise....guess what.....

THE FUCKING RING IS MINE!!!

Those of you that have made it this far and are still reading this, what do you think? Actually (no offense) it doesn't matter what you think, because I KNOW I'm right. HE gave up. HE broke his promises. HE walked out. And I'm supposed to give him the ring back so he can get reimbursed for his monetary loss? In case you were wondering, everything I have said in this post, and all the names I have called him here, HAVE been said to his face or over the phone since Monday. And he STILL fails to think his request for the ring is unwise. So, since he is acting like a child, he needs to be taught a lesson. AND, since money speaks louder to him than words, he will get a $2,200 lesson. No it's not a shitload of money, but he will be an unemployed student soon, so it will at least open his eyes a little, even if only to show him that he won't get EVERYTHING he wants, especially from ME.

I am NOT doing this for the money. I DO NOT plan on selling the ring. I still haven't been able to bring myself to take the ring OFF yet. I tried yesterday and thought my chest was going to cave in. When I told him at the airport that I would send him the ring back, I wasn't in a clear state of mind, and I also thought that eventually I would WANT to give it back so I wouldn't have to look at it, or come across it down the road. But things have become more clear, and that will not happen. I don't know whatHE planned to do with the ring, but I could never sell something that, although brings back the blinding pain of a broken promise, it also represents the the best love of my life. NO ONE will take that from me......IT STAYS HERE.